I am putzing around my house...not doing much. And all I can think of is what I would be doing if I wasn't here. Don't get me wrong I want to be here, I chose to be here, and I do know people here but...some days I miss the ease of my old life. The ease of just walking over to Kris's house for an iced tea and a chat on her front steps, the ease of calling Chad, Ben, Cass, Brit, Jenn, Chris, Nicole, etc...to go for lunch, to go to the market downtown, to go to the fringe, to go get a huge iced coffee and sit on a bench on Whyte watching people go by...
The ease of doing nothing with nobody in particular.
I miss watching tv with Desi over the phone, I miss the ease of sitting in Lynne's living room and rockin' out to Rock Band struggling to time sips of a beer with breaks on the song. I miss hanging with Nicole and Chris at pub quiz and music trivia. I miss late night text-athons with Chris and his dry wit making my laugh uncontrollably. I miss unexpected giant hugs and dry humping from Chad. I miss the quiet calm and hug that always lasts a little too long from Dan.
I miss the festivals, the Fringe, Taste of Edmonton, Gay Bingo, Drag shows, The great Sweet Potato Fry challenge, The rape walk, man diaper, and drinks on a patio that started as just two of us but easily grew to 20. And Vietnamese and Thai food Tuesday.
I miss Kris's huge laugh and unbelievably loud shreik, I miss Nicole's uber geekiness and willingness to try anything. I miss Chris's agreement with me and our frustration over the lack of understanding of elementary grammar basics that seem to plague society today. I miss Chad challenging me and making me really think about my arguments, I miss Ben and his dorky laugh and his great smile and his fancy dancing.
I miss the ease of doing nothing but doing everything, with nobody in particular, but with everybody special.
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