Thursday, July 30, 2009

And so it begins...

A friend of mine told me today that he has secretly been contributing to a blog for the past 3 months. It surprised me and caught me a bit off guard. I don't know why because he tends to have many little secrets in his life. Different secrets for different people and different secrets for different situations...so it got me thinking. It must be tiring to keep all of these different facets of his life separate and hidden from people. Perhaps this was one way that he could truly be free to vent, contemplate, organize, and soothe the most inner part of his mind. Maybe blogging was his new electronic diary? Only for his eyes, hidden away where nobody would go looking for it (unlike the porn under the mattress), buried within a website...protected by some obscure name and password. This electronic journal or diary was probably something nobody would expect he would have, I certainly didn't see it coming. So...two questions have come out of this for me. 

The first being: does blogging provide the same therapeutic value that counsellors have preached about for years? Is there some inherent relief that an individual experiences when they have a forum in which to vent their personal highs and lows, or when they are able to organize, categorize, prioritize, or theorize. Does it make room in a cluttered brain and allow for more coherent and efficient thought throughout the day? I am empirical so the only way to answer that question is to give this thing a try myself. Perhaps this is the answer I have been searching for that will allow for a good nights sleep rather than lying in bed awake planning my day, or re-playing the events of the current day. Perhaps the things that I want to say but I don't (thank-you internal filter), can be said here...and provide me with the satisfaction that I do not receive from 'keeping my mouth shut'. 

Secondly: Why did he tell me about his blog today? Three months into the process. Was it an accident? Does he regret it? Will I tell anyone about mine?

If I keep this blog to myself will it provide the same therapeutic value as if it were public? And if I tell people about it does the process become cheap and trashy like a self-indulgent open mike night at the local watering hole?

I suppose the only way to answer these questions is to wait and see what feels right...the proper course of action will hopefully seem obvious after the first couple of entries. 

So there you (or perhaps just I) have it. The premiere entry...numero uno. For now it is mine, who knows what the future holds it is far too soon to tell.

Bye for now,
False Grace

1 comment:

  1. ahhhhh...I have inspired you;) and I do not regret it!

    this is too fucking well written... you talented little vixen.

    ReplyDelete